after a crappy last night i woke up this morning, ate breakfast and read a friend´s blog which made me think a lot. my friend asked what things touch your soul, that remind you that life i sacred that lead you to breathe deeply?
of course that made me think. what things touch my soul? i think a lot of it is about to catch the moment. to be aware of all the "small" things in the world. i know my friend and i have been discussing this before. but i can keep talking about this forever.
i remember a sunny pretty warm summer day when i was driving the motorboat in the archipelago. i could feel the wind in my hair. i could touch the water. i was laughing together with my friends and we were heading to one of my favourite places on earth. i was so happy and felt free and i could breathe really deep.
or a day just about 6.5 weeks ago...i was riding the car with my friend and we were heading to her school were she used to study. we made a stop at Starbucks. the sun was shining. it was warm outside. i spent time with my special friend. i drunk this wonderful cinnamon latte and i remember thinking to really soak that moment in. i loved it and thought it was a great, great, great and wonderful moment in my life. i felt happiness.
it could also be when i one morning almost had no voice at all and just about two hours later should perform - sing and play the piano. i decided to just trust that my voice could come back later. it did and it all went well. it was amazing.
but i do not actually need to really go somewhere or it doesn´t have to be "big" to get touched with my soul.. i woke up today and said good morning to gucci, my hamster, and she just made me smile when she was taking a sand bath. she brings me such joy. i turned the music on while i was doing the dishes and sang a long. i was thinking about the new class i have started - how interesting it is. how much i appreciate my friends and that i am looking forward to the evening. all these examples are things i face during a "normal" day here in Östersund.
there are many things that really touches my soul. i think it is about when i am in contact with truly me - let my feelings come and be in the moment and don´t try to get rid of them or act. i have many times felt trapped. trapped in myself. therfore the word freedom means so much to me. freedom for me is when i face myself and let myself just be. life is about to soak in and live in the moment. if we keep dreaming about the future or thinking about the past, it is easy to forget today.
today, i am going to..
- call my dear nephew who is turning 6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
- think about my parents who are leaving for Turkey
- listen to music
- walk in the sunshine
- clean the apartment
- do some shopping
- welcome my friends who are coming over tonight
- go out and dance