So after a pretty looooong pause here..I have started a new blog - where I am gonna write about my "new life" (sort of). Leaving Denmark after one semester, planning on to move to the States for a longer time. I am leaving in one week!!!! Will update with pictures and let you know what´s going on in my life. So if you want updates follow this address:

http://lmve.blogg.se

Hope to keep in touch with you there!
/Lina

I am still alive (but you are more than welcome to come and visit anyway - just have to find our own place)...just don´t have access to Internet whenever I want to. Gaaaah. But love to be here and my work is awesome. Yay. Sorry, just a short update..

over and out.

• Dinner tonight
• Gonna hang out with some Danish people tonight
• Concert
• Visited my coming new work place. Woo hoo!
• The sun is shining
• I´m getting some "work" done
• Will get a new bike today (mine was stolen...)
• My last weekend before I start to work
• Someone is playing one of my favourite songs downstairs on the piano

Gaaah. Have been to "Den Sociale Højskole i Odense" and talked with my socialrådgiver (my contact person here in Odense as an exchange student) and woo hoo...I am excited!!! I may stay in Denmark for a while - longer than I first planned. YAY! But we´ll see.

Today it´s Tuesday (duh) but it means: choir practice and later on Carlsens Kvarter - the pub. Love it.

Have been here for about a week now and I am considering to stay. I mean...stay. Hehe. Who knows. A short update what I´ve been up to:

• a lot of walks
• been riding the bike all over the city. Yay!
• tried different cafes (and the best chocolate cake EVER!)
• been singing in the gospel choir (90 people showed up - amazing)
• met a lot of new people (and they are all taking such a good care of me/us)

And a lot of more things...and more to come. YAY!

KNUS

Woo hoo!

Living in Denmark now and I looooooove it! Think it´s gonna be a great time here...just have to settle down and get to know things and people. So just want to let you all know that I´m alive =)

Love. 

So have been busy the latest days by taking care of my special friend who´s in Sweden. Woo hoo!

Been hanging out by the lake, have had plenty of fika, been watching Mamma Mia (again - loooove it!), been scared of animals, been listening to music and I can keep going. Oooh, been sleeping a lot too. Hehe. Just a short update and some pictures..

Yay

uuuugh...

!

on our way having bbq

L

Gonna move to Denmark in just a few days. YAY!
Odense

- TWIGGY -

Plans for the week

• clean at my aunts´house (Mon)
• baby-sit three of my cousins (Mon)
• talk with J (Tue)
• spend time with L who´s coming to Sweden!!! (Wed)
• watch Mamma Mia (Thu)
• fika at my favourite places!
• spend time in the archipelago (Fri-Sun)

Gosh..have so much to do, but can´t concentrate at all. So I am just listening to music. G.R.E.A.T.

I was bored..and had already washed all the clothes, cleaned the house, organized song sheets so I decided to do a puzzle. Hmpf. 3000 pieces. That´s ridiculous. I got even more bored..and decided to not finish it. Good job Lina.

Want to do crazy things...but not by myself.

C went back home to Gothenburg yesterday afternoon and my parents are on a trip to Skåne (southern part of Sweden) so I´m home alone. Gosh, I suck on some things when I´m alone...have come to understand that I need people around me if things are gonna be good. It sucks. BUT have had a great time with C! Been to my favourite cafe´s downtown, been shopping alot..hmm (not good when you are trying to save money - but it was fun!) Went Thursday evening (yes, it´s at about 7PM when C and I took the pictures) to one of all the lakes we have around here. It has been about 30 °C (86°F) the latest days so it was really nice and warm...

Will organize things at home today and study some. Only about three days left til L from the States will come. Woo hoo!

My friend from Gothenburg will come and visit me for some days so I will have another break from this blog. See ya´soon again!

Enjoy summer!

got a phone call last tuesday afternoon. my sister asked me if i wanted to join them on their boat. woo hoo. so i have spent about five days in the archipelago with an amazing weather. yay!

have finally got some pictures on my computer!

sthlm

one view of stockholm

N who turned 24

we were hanging out on the balcony

Me, C and N

enjoying life!

sthlm and N

the night club

another view of sthlm

boat trip

one of the islands we were hanging out on

sunset...

...

...

hanging out with 8 other boats
crazy but so much fun!

peaceful

Because the world is round it turns me on
Because the world is round...aaaaaahhhhhh

Because the wind is high it blows my mind
Because the wind is high......aaaaaaaahhhh

Love is all, love is new
Love is all, love is you

Because the sky is blue, it makes me cry
Because the sky is blue.......aaaaaaaahhhh

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhh....

I don´t get this song...hmm..but I love it. And today I don´t get my life..even more confusing. Feel kind of deep today but working hard on to not think. I think way too much. Not good. Usch. Pics from Stockholm will be posted when my memory card wants to work again (and I can get everything on my computer). To see the girls in Stockholm made my weekend. Love ya´!

...but heading for another trip to the archipelago on tuesday

love it

will be back next Saturday

take care!

heading to the archipelago where i´m gonna relax, spend time with friends and family, swim (?), do some boat rides, sing, light camp fires etc. mmm. gonna be so nice. then hopefully spend some time in another archipelago together with my siblings and friends. and later on go to stockholm. we already have good plans figured out. awesome! so i´m gonna live life.

hope you´re having a great summer!

it´s all possible.

I have to finish packing...and what do I do...writing a list. It´s taken from Emma and related to my cell.


Have I kissed number 2?
Nope.

What kind of relationship do I have with number 20?
A friend from "D" during the fall 2008

When am I gonna meet number 30?
I have no idea. Hopefully next time I´m in Uppsala?!

Is number 18 cute?
Yes, she used to be a close friend to me.

First impression of number 13?
That´s one of my aunts..hmm. She met me when I was a newborned child - so I don´t remember..

Do I like number 14?
Yes, one of my closest friends from high school.

Have I met number 3 the latest month?
No...it was a long time ago.

When am I gonna meet number 26 next?
Hmm. Next youth board meeting?! Don´t know when...

Am I a close friend to number 23?
Think we are getting closer to each other and are on our way to get to know each other better. So pretty close.

Have I been to the movies with number 4?
Nope.

Would I like to go out with number 35?
Yes. It was a long time ago...

What do I talk about with number 5?
To be honest I´m not sure which of all the "A´s" it is. Crap.

Would I mind to give number 9 a hug?
Absolutely. I miss her alot. A close friend from "D"

What kind of relation do I have with number 24?
Good and pretty close. We used to share apartment in Östersund!

What would I like to do with number 25?
Meet him, his son and his wife - I used to study with her in Uppsala!

What´s the best with number 8?
She kind of saved my life during the last year. Loved to talk with her, even it was a hard time.

Do I usually meet number 16?
When I´m in town. She´s my aunt by marriage.

Happy 4th of July!

Next year I might be in the States during the 4th of July..and I´m hopefully gonna dance like crazy to bluegrass. Woo hoo! But I did it today anyway..while packing. Not the same though, I think.
 

it sometimes feels like i´m walking on glass

picture from yyellowbird

so i´m heading for a very short trip to Gothenburg. will later go to a place in the middle of nowhere for some days =) which means there will be a break from this blog for some days. i´ll be back on wednesday.

just to let you know.
take care.

over and out.

.downtown with my cousin. craziness. one pair of jeans shorts, a long sleeve thin sweater, a skirt, pants, a dress and a t-shirt. studied for several hours. drove the car. packed the car with a bike. laughter. stomach aches. thoughts. plans. talks.

plans for today
- wash clothes
- study
- pack (heading for Gothenburg tomorrow morning)
- talk with L

i like this craziness

where´s summer? it´s cold and rainy..makes me sad.

sunshine, please

i´m freezing all the time

[update]

rest in peace emma

a wonderful dog is spending time with Bessie now and they are running and playing together. i can almost hear them...they are both free from all the pain now. thanks for all the joy you two have given me

you will always remain in my heart

a new week and a new start

m e  l i k e.

freedom

jumping. woo hoo.

crazy faces


M


T got full and tired


there were some really blue sky sometimes


audience...


...because E entertained.


Strawberries...mmm.


it was cold..


picking flowers


we are working on it


...


...


done!

Hope you will have a great midsummer!

i am running late AGAIN with the english assignment. guess, this is how i nowadays work...gosh, i´ve changed alot. so gonna study today - finish the assignment then finally cut and colour my hair. need it so badly.

i get really tired of myself sometimes and i have come to understand that i think waaaaay too much. BUT how do i change my thoughts? i can´t stop to think. gosh, this is really frustrating (as you can see)..hmm. i need to focus on something totally different when there are too many thoughts,  BUT again, how? it´s hard to just change the subject when you´re busy to think. i have to practice alot and perhaps one day it will work out fine..without me even analyzing and think that i have to change my thoughts. mmm. that´s a goal. this was a really confusing text. sorry. but it was just about my thoughts. hehe.

so now i´m gonna think on my english assignment. just the assignment. nothing else. yes, i am working on it. trying.

over and out.

- study
- meet A-L downtown
- b-day party for my cousin
- talk with L

by the way. i can´t go to bed at 21 already. i just wake up at 3 in the morning then. it´s insane. but glad i know people i can call then. like night talks/early morning talks and it was beautiful outside.

i´m crazy.
but kind of like it.

• to see my uncle...he´s in love.
• talked with my grandparents who were feeling waaaaay much better
• jumped alot (trampoline)
• ate strawberries
• watched old video tapes with me and my former class singing on TV/different concerts/class trip etc. memories.
• talked with my special friend

so better take a shower, get dressed and i´m off downtown..

• worked in Linköping
• train-ride back to Norrköping
• fika at Broadway Express with my cousin
• a man walked in to the café and realized he knew my cousin. turns out he´s playing the violin at the final of Wilhelm Stenhammar International Music Competition and asked if we wanted to listen to it. so we did, for free. me like. it was crazy. but i like these unexpected happenings.

random pictures taken yesterday

on my way from train station to see my cousin
love the parks in Norrköping

the café

the stage

there were more people later..

remembering this river last year when the american group was here...
(there were no water then)

drove my cousin back home.
the sunbeams shone through the clouds.

peaceful

+ all the kids at the kindergarten where i worked today, met a friend i haven´t seen since ´06, i´ve "found" an amazing song, glad to have some american friends who can help me out with some assignments, gucci, diet coke and talks with L. 
- i miss the weather we used to have (it´s all cloudy and chilly now), i´m losing alot of hair, bad thoughts, diet coke, spiders, i´m tired and confused.

picture from here

i just want to relax in a warm and sunny park close to water
listen to music, read or talk about life with a friend

...is to feel what you truly feel and not act or try to ignore your emotions

The Call

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry

I´ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything´s changing
Doesn´t mean its never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You´ll come back
When it´s over
No need to say good bye

You´ll come back
When it´s over
No need to say good bye..

Now we´re back to the beginning
It´s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can´t feel it too
Doesn´t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they´re before your eyes

You´ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You´ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye..

[Regina Spektor]

[update]

i have to let things be. but it´s scary. i have to choose the, for many people, right road. but it´s scary. i am sick tired of many things..i have to change it. i am the only one who can change it.. but it feels good to not walk alone. tack for all your love.

a great tan...hehe

...and i have been awake for an hour. meh. can´t sleep..

my room is finally organized. yay. took me a day and a half to get it done. going downtown today for some errands, then study some (i´m taking a summer course in english). other than that: play some piano and guitar and talk with L - yay! pretty much the plans for today.

so i am leaving östersund tomorrow. perhaps for the rest of my life...we´ll see. but i´m facing new adventures! denmark. woo hoo. but first summer in norrköping.

tomorrow school from about 8 to 12 then road trip to norrköping.

over and out.

woke up this morning and looked out...mmm, clear blue sky and the sun is shining so bright and warm. it´s gonna be a warm day today. yay. gonna eat dinner with my friends in the park, sit on an outside street café and just enjoy one of our last days together here in östersund. feels weird and sad...

school.
pack.
clean.
spend time with my friends.

that´s what i´m gonna do the coming two days. then drive homehome..

gucci
love her

me, n and c - t and me
woo hoo crazy expressions

choir practise - the church where we had our concert

still practising but my view - dresscode: something white and then jeans

one of the other choirs practising their songs

it has been great weather the latest days
love the clear bue sky


the marina..just a few boats so far

I´m gonna have a weekend off from school. Yay. Did the final exam for this class today - have no clue if i will pass or not though. It was a hard test.. So tonight will I take part of a bbq and just hang out with people. Tomorrow sing with the choir and on Sunday are we gonna have a kind of a breaking up/Summer concert! Then pack, clean and attend the final compulsory things in this class - Motivational Interviewing. Yay. Soon summer break and another semester in school is over..unbelievable and amazing.

crazy crazy
 

i am smiling (ok, a funny smile here)

i really like this day, even if i´m feeling crappy in many ways. it´s weird but i loooove this good feeling about life. yay. let me have more of these kind of days.

p l e a s e.

i surely needed a break from the blog..but i have missed it, even if i´ve been busy - and still am. a hard coming week in school. final exam on friday so i will study alot. but first a break and let me introduce a music favourite.

love it

visit her website
or
listen to some songs on youtube

have a lot of things to do in school and to think about in general so i am taking a break from the blog for some days. hope you all will come back soon again.

so long!

heading for school pretty soon. yes, it is early.. we are going to visit a treatment center (follow the link to read more about it) with class. so will not come back until tomorrow evening. just a short note to let you know *smiling*.

so long.

stay there
do not fly away
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if you want to see some crazy girls driving/riding a car on their way from Åre..click on "Videoklipp" and "Förstora Klippet" (makes the video screen bigger). or follow this link. i know, we are crazy...

...and we are off to Åre!

road trip with the girls

see some other things than Östersund

a break from school

mmm

i used to visit the library a lot when i was a kid. it was about a three minutes walk from my house, so really close and i loved it. but school started to take more time and i didn´t let myself read, other than books from school..pretty sad. i started this friday to sit at the library in school and i was thinking about my childhood and history of being at the library every other day, and how much i miss to read more than i do. but summer is soon here and i´m gonna start to read through the pile of unread books i have then. yay. but first finish the school term. the exam is getting closer..guess where i´m gonna sit?!

my desk this morning

read, read and read..

the view from my desk

another view from where i sat

on our way to the lecture..

feels good to only have a two hour lecture today. gaaah, there is so much to read..i´m really under stress now. usch. so plans for today:

- school and read some before class
- lecture
- say hej to a friend downtown
- home and study

yay, what an exciting friday. hmpf. but tomorrow are we ("the gang") gonna do a road trip to Åre. YAY. think we all need a break from everything and just have fun!!!

Åre

[picture from here]

totally a grey and rainy morning...

and i got really bored during one of the lectures
so i started to entertain myself..

like this café...to sit and drink tea. mmm.
and look at the beautiful red wall full of old movies.
simple. good. cozy.

5 years ago...
... i turned 19 in just a few days. it was last year in high school and only a few weeks left for graduation. i did my last operation (hopefully the last one ever). moved to the states in august and spent one semester in washington dc. met new friends from all over the world and i´m still in contact with some of them. awesome.

3 years ago...
...i was about to turn 21. studied music in uppsala, a city i loooove. spent summer in the archipelago and in germany and then moved back to uppsala. worked at different daycare centers during the fall.

1 year ago...
...almost 23 and was about to finish second semester at the university in östersund. the whole spring was like a fog. i took care of a bunch of americans during one week in summer - so much fun! spent some time in the archipelago, was not in a good shape and moved back to östersund in august, had a break from school and tried to take care of myself. will never forget this year.

3 months ago...
...february...i went to a b-day party in stockholm where i entertained by singing and playing together with my cousin. was great! did one of my best trips ever where i went to the states to visit my special friend. didn´t want to leave..

Yesterday...
...wednesday...i was in school from about 8am to 1pm. studied some at home and tried to think positive. didn´t work out that good =/

Today...
...it´s SNOWING again (hmpf...come on it´s may!!!). going to school after lunch. off at 4pm, go home and study and no other specific plans. want to drink coffee at a café.

Tomorrow...
...friday...going to be in school from 8 to 2pm, i think. don´t have any plans yet, but will probably study some and then try to relax.

In one year...
have no idea where i am in the world. not in sweden, i think. perhaps in Austria or still in Denmark?  i don´t know...will soon end my fifth semester (of seven) at the university. will start my second practical schoolterm during fall and don´t know where i´m gonna do it. sweden? abroad? who knows? i am a big question mark.

Until then...
finish school for this semester. spend summer in Norrköping, meet friends i haven´t seen for a while, spend time in the archipelago, just relax and breathe. then move to denmark. woo hoo!

music. music. music...

..it always surprises me. i was listening to a song on itunes and suddenly another song was on. i liked the name of it (A table in the sun). you can analyze it as something just "normal" - everyday life but at the same time there is something more. why a table? why in the sun? is the table a symbol of something stable, standing on four table legs...and the sun is a symbol of something warm, cozy and nice - something you really need in life. no sun. no life. hmm. so i just had to listen to the lyrics and here we go...

A table in the sun is all I want
Just want to slow down and rest my heart
So many tears and so much fear
So much happened in the last two years

No rain, no sorrow, the bad days are over
The sun is shining through
Even November days, too
So much we´ve learned, a whole new world
Thank God I´m saved
I´m still cruising The Seventh Wave

It´s hard to understand, what we´ve been through
I guess we need time - me and you
Oh so many times, I wondered why
It happened to me - this time

A table in the sun and me and you

- Marie Fredriksson -

think i needed to listen to that song. mmm. love these surprising moments.

body language is another thing i have been thinking of today. we had a guest speaker today in class (from the States) and she used body language a lot. i love when people use their bodies while telling you a story. it becomes more dramatic in a good way. i have been told i use my hands a lot while i´m talking and i like it so i´m not gonna stop do that. yay for body language.

i´m a bit jealous. L and her friend are going to the beach house for some days..and i have to be here in Sweden (and it´s really cold outside - it even snowed today) and study. hmpf. but summer soon. yay. i´m gonna be free then. i have to be free then.

going to study some now. movie tonight. yeah.

I was reading my sister´s blog and I am smiling big now.
They have bought a trampoline. YAY. I looooooove it - it´s so much fun! So Emily and Theodor, here I come. I will for sure spend a lot of time jumping in summer. Woo Hoo.

picture from jumpking

New week and I´m heading for school..

plans for today
.lecture in school.
.meet G.
.study.
.choir practice.
.talk with L.

after spent some time at one of the open late cafés/pubs/restaurants we went home to watch another movie (yes, a lot of movies this weekend - but, we didn´t finish the one last night though). but my point this time was not to write about movies...

we walked in the pretty dark city and it made me think. i like the dark in some ways. all the buildings are looking so different and you get the chance to see part of them, uplighted, that you during daylight may not pay attention to. so the dark let the light take place and lift things up. hmm. and to see the beautiful moon...mmm, and stars if it´s not cloudy or too light. me like. i have always been scared of the dark and evenings (at least the latest years...ugh). but i think i have started to like the dark more and more.

a metaphor to life: it´s hard to see the light in life if it´s always dark or if you don´t let yourself light some things up. but without darkness you never learn to also appreciate the light. you don´t know how real real light can be like. life. i think all my darkness...hmm..learned myself to appreciate life more and more. and when i start to like the darkness it means it´s not too scary anymore. still a little bit scary, but I can handle it better. yeah.

i know the pictures are blurry but at the same time it gives you a possibility to see all the lights in another way.

sunglasses are good.
i have used them a lot today.

today: sun. people. friends. phone calls. grapes. sunglasses. lake. music. tears. café. talks. anxiety. water. movies.

tomorrow: school work.

want summer now. need it.

...of words i like in some ways (not in a specific order)

• mystery
• moon
• archipelago
• stars
• crap
• strawberries
• special
• breathe
• freedom
• faith
• peace
• crazy
• trust
• truth
• promise

[update]
so after have been thinking what to do, we have decided to have a "girl´s night". which means: we are gonna be only girls at our place (duh), do some arts and crafts (i will sketch on clothes i will design in summer - my summer project), eat some snacks (yay, i´ve decided to enjoy it for 100%), listen to good music, talk about life, later on wear PJ:s and end the day with movies! sounds good, doesn´t it? woo hoo. i´m gonna live life. tomorrow morning: scones at Sally´s. yummi. then the park. sun. music. me like.

over and out.

run with a pink balloon
.summer.cornelis vreeswijk.strawberries.good company.freedom.peace.
but i can start with a pink balloon in my hand.
sweet
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i´m living in a musical world
it´s weird
mmm

C r A P .

is the only word i can say tonight.
[kind of..]

no lectures today which means i have to study on my own. a lot of reading - books and articles. have to read about 1000 pages during these coming weeks. hmm. that makes me feel tired. later on grey´s anatomy and then talk with L. woo hoo. that´s my day as far as i know. time to get ready. books and articles here i come..

picture from here.

i actually wear another color than black today. wow.
old pictures though
[too tired to take new pictures]

• my summer has to be different this year
• "they" cannot agree with each other. it´s a war. all. the. time. and i´m sick tired of it
• i don´t want to spend the rest of my future in sweden. wanna travel and work abroad. for sure
• music is life
• i like sunny days more than cloudy ones
• i hate when it´s windy
• i´m on my way toward wrong direction. i´m at least aware of it
• i miss a lot of people
• want to be in the States this weekend
• i need to by a new computer. and i will
• i´m looking forward to denmark
• want to stand on stage more than i do
• have to study, but can´t focus today and it sucks
• i´m in a movie mood today

so after two days spending at home, writing and with plenty of coffee drinks..

...i started a new class in school today. last one for this semester!(Social work, Alcohol and drug dependence and misuse).

to sit in these classrooms (instead of the big ones) feels like beeing back in high school..hehe. the sky was so blue...mmm. i was thinking about summer then. it will be a great summer, i think and hope!

hard working..or not.
i really don´t like these kind of pens.
it´s really functional with different colors. but the design...ugh it´s ugly.

so will go to the choir practice tonight..or actually pretty soon (in about an hour), then hang with the gang. woo hoo. want to talk with L too..but soon, hopefully. we´ll see. speaking of L...hmm..made me think of usa and english. I´m gonna take an English class in summer. YAY!

gotta do some school work now. ciao ciao.

i´m done with my paper!!!

finally. guess who´s gonna celebrate!?! couch, here i come.

movie and popcorn.

i am glad and relieved even i know there are so many more things i could have add, delete, change and so on. but i can´t work on it forever (think i will never get totally satisfied).. hehe.

i am so tired. it feels like i have been running a marathon twice in a row (even if i have never done that and don´t know exactly how it feels like - but imagine it).

hmm. it just hit me. perhaps i´m physical tired because i´m thinking waaaay too much.

gonna stop do that.
easy to say. hard to live up to.

my body is weird and i´m crazy. a great team.

Ok. So I have been writing on a paper the last two days and I´m so so so bored. BUT I have had some exciting moments during the day. Woo hoo! First..

...the marching band (love the drums!)

then I have been talking some with L in the states...yay!

and the fire alarm went off in the building on the other side of the main street where I live. So the fire truck came..what an adventure!
(No worries. No fire in sight.)

Take my hand and walk with me let me show you what I´m feeling. What´s going on inside of me? Don´t you know you have changed me, don´t you know my wishes all came true? You´re my angel, now I want to do it all for you

Because…

…right here, right now nothing is impossible.

But I have to let things be and when the night is cloudy, there will still be a light that shines on me, shine on until tomorrow, let it be.

And if I´m mad, I’m gonna get mad and not hold it inside. When I´m standing at the crossroads, don´t know which path to choose I´m gonna let you come along.

´cos there will be mountains that I will have to climb. There will be battles that I will have to fight. But victory or defeat, it´s up to me to decide. But how can I expect to win If I never try?

I just can´t give up now. I´ve come too far from where I started from. Nobody told me the road would be easy and I don´t believe He brought me this far to leave me.

But sometimes I cradle my head in my hands and breathe... just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe and I just lay it all down. Put my face into your neck and let it fall out and I know that I don´t have to be in this world alone, you´ll get there somehow. I will learn to breathe this ugliness I see and I will rise out of my nightminds, and into the light at the end of the fight. In our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds and into the light at the end of the fight.

So, when I feel like hope is gone I’m gonna look inside and be strong so I´ll finally see the truth. The Shepherd is my soul and I give You full control wherever You may lead I will follow. I have made the choice, to listen to Your voice so wherever You may lead, I will go.

And I´m smilin´ and shinin´.

And I never thought I´d feel this way
And as far as I´m concerned
I´m glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin´, keep shinin´
Knowin´ you can always count on me, for sure
That´s what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I´ll be on your side forever more
Thats what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there´s so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we´re apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin´ from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That´s what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I´ll be on your side forever more
Oh, that´s what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin´, keep shinin´
Knowin´ you can always count on me, for sure
That´s what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I´ll be on your side forever more
That´s what friends are for

Keep smilin´, keep shinin´
Knowin´ you can always count on me, oh, for sure
´Cause I tell you that´s what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I´ll be on your side forever more
That´s what friends are for (That´s what friends are for)

On me, for sure
That´s what friends are for
Keep smilin´, keep shinin´

can´t focus at all today...meh.

- been to A-B
- been to G
- done some shopping
- played some guitar
- choir practice tonight
- gonna talk with L

Uppsala tomorrow. Woo Hoo! Gonna be crazy!

Just lay it all down.
Put your face into my neck and let it fall out.
I know, I know , I know. I knew before you got home.
This world your´e in now,
it doesn´t have to be alone,
I´ll get there somehow, ´cos
I know I know I know
when, even springtime feels cold.

But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see
so we can both be there and we can both share the dark.
And in our honesty, together we will rise,
out of our nightminds, and into the light
at the end of the fight...

You were blessed by
a different kind of inner view: it´s all magnified.
The highs will make you fly,
but the lows make you want to die.
And I was once there,
hanging from that very ledge where you are standing.
So I know, I know, I know,
it´s easier to let go.

But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see,
so we can both be there and we can both share the dark.
And in our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds
and into the light at the end of the fight.

...and in our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds
and into the light... at the end of their fight...

[Missy Higgins]

still staring at the computer and have done that since i woke up this morning. yes, still the paper..it´s pretty hard this time..there are so many books and so many theories and things i want to write about. meh. but i´m learning things which is awesome!

want to play the guitar. want to listen to music. want to watch a movie. want to travel. want summer to come...hmm. but i´m sitting on the couch, writing on my paper (except for right now) and i´m tired of it.

but soon dinner..c is making some.

want to do crazy things

.great company. good food. sunny afternoon/evening.

ended up on the couch. listening to some music.
sufjan stevens.

but i like our couch and i like music. so why not? but i want strawberries too. mmm.

[or what i really, really need to do is to write on my paper. meh]

miss my mom´s smoothies. that´s summer. she always makes me some then. i´m a spoiled "kid".

bbq tonight. gonna freeze myself to death. or not, because i want to live. but i think it´s gonna be cold. ok, there was no point. or..think it´s gonna be nice. beer. people. vegetarian food. yes. that´s the way to go. veggie.

gaaah. i´m just telling you all random things you probably not are interested in. but i don´t care right now. mouhaha. i´m feeling crazy today (or more than usual).

and i give thanks to my friend L for introducing me to bluegrass. love it. it makes me smile and it´s like when i´m listening to african music. i can´t stand still. have to dance. think i have been an african before i was born as a swede. but bluegrass...mmm. road trips. usa. wanna go back. i will. memories.

midsummer a la ´86, i think.

by the way. sufjan stevens has a song called jacksonville. that made me think about a conversation i had yesterday. yay.

ok. paper here i come..MEH. or should i colour my hair instead?

[update]

i have been thinking a bit more..

we have a personal entertainer here. it´s a street musician and he´s standing pretty close to our apartment. or i can at least hear him pretty good. like it though. but not when i want to listen to other songs or when the store downstairs is playing "I´m Yours" for the twentysecond time of the day...

it´s a fight between my music, the musician and the store. gaaaah. what a problem.

i´m colouring my hair. gaaah. i´m always writing papers in the last minute. it at least feels like that. i have to trick myself. tell myself THIS is the last day of writing. ok. gotta go and take a shower. bbq soon.

i want to feel free

we are studying and Lilla My is bored..but she´s trying to entertain herself by looking out on the main street. people and dogs are outside.
interesting, she thinks.

ok..i took a break from writing the paper..

- shopping (picture)
- studied (a bit)
- have been sitting outside in the sun
- gonna take a walk
- movie night

school today. then i´m off for a walk in the sun. yes, the sun is shining today!! love it. later on concert with the choir. And I wear a dress today! Spriiing is here!

Take my hand and walk with me
Let me show you what Im feeling
Whats going on inside of me
Dont you know you have changed me
Dont you know my wishes all came true
Youre my angel, now I want to do it all for you

Right here, right now
Nothing is impossible
Right here, right now
Im running on a miracle
Ive seen youre face, I feel your love
and theres nothing I can do
Right here, right now
My heart, my heart belongs to you

Feels like yesterday to me, yeah
When you pass outside my window
How youre vision caught my eye, yeah
Like in only forever
Something made you turn and look at me
In a heartbeat, I knew my destiny

Right here, right now
Nothing is impossible
Right here, right now
Im running on a miracle
Ive seen youre face, I feel your love
and theres nothing I can do
Right here, right now
My heart, my heart belongs to you

For now and for always
Youll be the one I, youll be the one I turn to

Ohhh
Right here (Right now)
(Nothing is impossible)
Right here, right now
Im running on a miracle
Ive seen youre face and I feel your love
and theres nothing I can do
(Right here) Right now
My heart, my heart belongs to you
My heart belongs x2
My heart belongs to you, ohhh
(Im running on a miracle)
Ive seen youre face and I feel your love
and theres nothing I can do
Right here, right now
My heart, my heart belongs to you
My heart belongs to you

like this song...

have been sitting outside in the sun. the best part: i just wore jeans, converse and a t-shirt. unbelievable. love spring.

will be in uppsala in just a week. yay. love the city. love the people. love the last of april celebration. it will be crazy. seriously..really crazy. like it though. remember last time i was there. january..mmm, good memories.

might need to get some sleep now. i am tired.

over´n  out.

last of april in Uppsala

crazy students
[picture from here]

a crowd of students
[picture from here]

miss her so much. would have been perfect to go out for a walk..like we used to.

love.

i have to let things be..but i can´t.

it sucks